I put the sane in Insane ^_^

paradoxicalplasmabarrels asked: I have recently been dealt with a similar situation. I understand all situations are different, but hard drugs such as these cause certain patterns. If she is so deep into these addictions, like is rationalizing it into her normal life, then there is really no help she can do for herself at this time....You really have to choose what you want, for her to have to hit rock bottom and maybe not get back up, or her dislike you while she gets the help she needs. Life doesn't get much harder than this

You are so right… She did try “thizz” in high school and she started to get out of control to the point where she came into work and was crying telling me she needed help- so I spoke to her mom and she was mad at me for days, but then got over it. I think I may wait and see if the next time she really quits and let her know what my plans are if she doesn’t quit… idk but thank you so much!

I have a friend who is newly addicted to heroin and often experimenting with other drug like meth, and when trying to “stop” heroin she uses xanax and other prescription medications that are sold to her. I don’t know what to do. She just got a new job as a hostess and keeps telling me that she doesn’t have a problem yet because she has a job and isn’t doing anything crazy… She has a great brother, mother, and father, I grew up with her and we both were great students, she was never abused, she just has an addictive personality and is in a house full of drugs and a boyfriend who does drugs. She is both a love addict and a drug addict - I just don’t know whether to leave her be, or tell someone… I’ve tried to just talk to her, but she says she doesn’t have a problem and gets upset…

Lately I’ve been feeling extremely ugly. I’m not telling anyone because I’m not that chick that’s like, oh I’m ugly tell me I’m pretty… I don’t care what people tell me, I see what they think is beautiful. I know not everyone can be a model or an actor, but seeing all these woman are really tearing me down. I see that most of them are using plastic surgery or make up, but i don’t care. Now that I’m able to read my thoughts I feel so stupid… but I still feel the same lol I am being a whiney brat- and I think I am what the cool kids call a “hater” lol I don’t want to be like the people I hate but it wouldn’t hurt to look like them. :( ugh Goodbye self xoxoxo

I always thought that being raised with my brothers was a good thing…and in many ways it was but I think it’s taking its tole. Guys are brought up to provide for their family and all I stress about lately is not being able to provide for my guy. I don’t have the money to even go out and buy him dinner to make. I feel like I am a more than horrible girlfriend. All of my goals in life surround him. I just want to show him I can be great too. I know one day I will reach my goals, let’s just hope I reach them in time.

Maybe writing down what I have done in the past will end my bedtime tears….

• lied
• cheated
• was raped
• attempted suicide
• thought about murdering my attacker
• hated
• made people cry for satisfaction…I did not know that I was doing that at the time…but now thinking of it like that hurts so bad.

What did I do wrong? What did I do wrong? What did I do wrong?

What is wrong with me??? Why is it that I feel so sad. I have a great boyfriend who is always here for me, I have a roommate/friend who is willing to do anything for me, so many people find me attractive…On the other hand, I am looking for a job, I have about 1 inch or more of love handles, my stomach could be flatter, I feel that even if I was pretty I am not what anyone wants they want white chicks with tattoos and perfect bodies, asian girls, girls with fat asses…everything I am not. I have goals in life. I want to one day take care of my spouse and hopefully one day have a child… but I feel as though I will never get that becuase of my sadness. I feel like everything could be better if I wasn’t so worried but no matter what I do I feel as though i am still worried. I try to think positive only to bring myself down. My goal is to become someone who anyone would want to be with…make him feel lucky to be with me and actually feel as though he is losing something instead of getting rid of headache…why can’t I be normal? Is that too much to ask for? If there is a god, how come I am the way I am? Why can’t I just be happy? Why did things happen to me? What did I do wrong?